Thursday, February 17, 2011


I would update more but:

1. I am busy, I have a life here at home, even alone, and it has been crazy busy (work, work).

2. She is busy, it isn't all about teasing me, she's training, busy, working.


Sunday, we talked about that for a few.

"You're okay," she asked me.

"Yes, Emily, you know I am."

"You're sure, Sara, really sure? There's a line between fantasy and..."

"Reality. Yes, I know."

"I...I blurred that."

"I know that, too."

"I don't want to...I mean, you're my best friend and lover, Sara."

"Emily, do you know how hot that was?"


"Do you know how badly I wanted cum?"

She giggled. "Yea, I bet, as much as I did, at least. But still, I was, I mean, he was."

"Wait, let me ask, were you all hot and bothered because of him or thinking of me or both?"

"Both, I guess."

"Would you have messed around with him if it wasn't for me?"

Which went to the heart of the question, in my mind.


Which is what I assumed and hoped and thought. "This wasn't about Todd, Emily, right? This was about me, about us?"

"Yes, you know that."

"That's why I'm okay with it, Em, that's what make it so hot. You wanted him, but you didn't want him, you wanted him because he was there and I'm not and I'm here locked up thinking of you..."

"And it gets me so hot thinking about that, Sara."

"I know."

"I was so close to fucking him, Sara."

"I know." I bit my lip, almost unable to say it, not sure if I wanted to, if I should. " can, Emily."

I heard her sharp intake of breath, wondered if she just had an orgasm. Yea, from her lover telling her it was okay to fuck a guy. "I know, Sara. I knew then. I wanted his cock inside me, not just cause it would have felt so good, but I wanted him to fuck me because I knew it would make you feel and that made me so hot."

It was my turn to suck in a breath.

"That makes you hot, doesn't it?"

"Yea," I swallowed.

"Thinking of me like that."

"Yes, Emily, yes, yes."

"I love you, Sara."

And, busy, buys as I was on Monday and Tuesday and Wednesday, all I could think about, all day, every second, was Emily with a cock inside her, riding, getting fucked, having an orgasm, thinking of me!


  1. Quote "... Emily with a cock inside her, riding, getting fucked, having an orgasm, thinking of me..."

    Not yet, sweetie, not yet...
    That will be Friday night.
    And that will be, inexorably, for true !

  2. I usually don't comment here, but something about this series has touched a cord. . .

    First, on cross dressing and sissy behavior - in my own case, these are strongly related to my relationship to my partner. Dressing, or engaging in feminine activities tends to be something I do when I am separated from her, and serves to combat the loneliness and depression associated with that separation. It tends to make me feel one with her, in an almost psychic way. When I am with her, it tends to make me a more attentive lover.

    I think the same may be true for you Sara, and I think that Emily sharing this with you tends to do the same for her, as long as she is with you. That is, she appreciates your feminine side, and feels closer to you when she hears the sound of your heels, or feels your lingerie slide across hers.

    But what to do when you are apart? With the chastity, I believe that Emily has found a way to maintain that psychic connection between the two of you at long distance. By suppressing your masculinity, and enhancing your femininity, she has enabled you to stay focused on her and your relationship. And by becoming your key holder, she thinks about you every time she dresses, or is sexually aroused. So the two of you feel a sense of love and intimacy with each other, even while apart.

    At the same time, I bet that Emily doesn't feel the same intimacy and closeness with Todd that she feels with Sara . . . the point of sex with Todd is more likely to share it vicariously with Sara. So in the end, even that sex is part of the psychic connection.

    I am deeply appreciative of both Sara and Emily sharing all of this with us through this blog. I wish both of you all the best in your continued relationship.